A start.

There are times when you reflect back on your life so far, and wonder a million different ways...What could I have done differently...or even better? The simplest answer is, there is not a simple answer. At the inspiration of some of the current influences in my life, I am trying something new. I am terrified at the mere thought of someone else reading what I feel and think in my heart of hearts. Trying is all I can do right now, so this is it. Honest it is.

Picking up the pieces that is called my life, has been a slightly more than disturbing experience for me in the last eight weeks. Everything I once knew is gone, a whole lifetime just wiped out from being there anymore. But I am so thankful for it. A little crazy, a little outside my comfort zone has been good for me. But I am terrified. New work place, new friends, new adjustments, and dating. This is not for the faint of heart, it is tough. Selective doesn't even cover it, unsure, awkward, and scared. Not knowing which way is up and learning about people is hard. Getting to know people has been the best thing for me. It makes that dating thing the very least of my worries, more of a fun amusement, but a good cover for distracting the heartache. One day, one step at a time. Breathing deep, and giving it a chance. That's a place to start.

"If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with success unexpected in common hours." Henry David Thoreau