Heart - Crazy On You

Mantra for the day

Bored.

Sitting here today, I realized, I am bored. Bored to tears over everyday mundane life details. I should be a happy as a clam. I built up to a life others wouldn't mind having, but selfish me...I'm bored! I am ready for some kind of bigger change, or closure to other details, ready for the constant drip that keeps falling out of the sky to stop.  Three different golf lessons have now been canceled, depressing. Maybe it's just the day, or the week, or leftover uncomfortableness from the weekend. All I know is I am bored. Uncomfortable about recent decisions I've made, and where on earth that is going to take me. Ugh, meh, with a side of blurg. Highlight of my week so far...watching Back to the Future 1,2 & 3 repeatedly. If only I could go back to the past. HA! Yoga and gym tonight, flexible and in shape before you know it. Alas, at least it's May and almost summer.

I don't like you.

Today, I don't like you. Tomorrow, I might be able to not cringe at the sound of your name. Blissful indifference will once again set in, and you will be just a forgotten memory. But today, I don't like you. I don't like the disrespect that you have shown, and the way you weirdly keep popping up in my life. This is just a small splinter to remove and  be tossed away.

I figure it is best to be happy as I have been, and surround myself with the people who love me, but I still don't like you. Instead of pushing for every negative thing in this world to throw at you, and bring down on you, I refrained and once again will be the bigger and better person. Not perfect mind you, but certainly a healthier and happier person, one who learned from past mistakes, and showed compassion when I didn't have to.